新年快乐dear，happy 2009...

我们在一起度过了跨年，虽然在不同的地方，可是能听到dear和我一起倒数我就很开心了！

dear，这是我们在一起度过的第三个节日，你还记得第一个节日是什么吗？第二个？第三个？

记得吗记得吗？

dear我好爱你哦，你真的令我觉得我是最幸福的人了。

无论是什么时候，只要听到你的声音，接触到你，我就很开心很开心了。真的。

我想要每天都能感受到你的存在，我想要每天都能听到你的声音，

dear可以吗？

不管你多忙都好，都要想我好吗？都关心我好吗？只要一分钟，不，五秒钟都好。

因为我不想在你心里消失，我要你永远永远都记得我。

因为我也会永远永远的记得你的。

dear,跨年你不在我身边是个遗憾，但能和你一起倒数是我的幸运，

我很珍惜上天给我们的任何机会，任何能与你接触的机会。

对呀dear,和你在一起的每一分每一秒我都觉得好幸福好快乐。

总觉得世界上所有的事情都变得不重要了，只要有你在身边。

我们一起做过的事还历历在目，我无法不去想它。

每次想得入神的时候，就会自己傻笑，我怎么会有一个这么好笑的dear？

每次都带给我快乐，都令我笑的像傻子。。。

dear有你真好。真的。

对呀，dear第一次和你做坏坏的事，第一次和你看戏看到大笑，第一次与中快步，

第一次第一次第一次。。。。

所有的第一次我都很怀念。。。尤其是笨笨的dear第一次被我seduce到的时候，

真的觉得我们都好幸福，好幸福好幸福到会令人羡慕。。。

虽然dear很坏，可是有些时候dear好笨，
笨得我想永远都抱着你不放，让你一直笨下去。哈哈。。。

对呀dear,我们一起做过好多好多的东西，我都没忘记，

每一刻都是这么的幸福。

当dear你对我说你会自己组电脑的时候我真的吓了一跳，

dear你有多了一样让我佩服你的东西。

要多么幸运才能够找到像dear你这么super duper ultra extreamly聪明的人呢？

我这得很幸运很幸运咯。。。

你在我心目中已经是90%perfect了，

如果你真的会做一个robot的话。。。。哇~~~~dear。。。。我可以考虑嫁给你了，

真的。

因为我就是喜欢比我聪明比我厉害的男生，

所以帅和有钱对我来说，虽然我也有点在意，可是我不会把他们看得太重，

因为我只要有dear的爱，就足够了。

dear在我心目中已经够帅了，再帅的话，我会没有安全感的。。。

dear你没钱也没关系啊，我们以后一起努力赚钱就好了啊，

只要我们都努力，我相信以后的日子也会过得很好。。。

dear要加油哦。。。

我，想把我自己交给你，dear，你要接受吗？

我会在你身边默默的支持你，给你最大的鼓励！

dear你说好不好？？好不好？好不好jek?

哈哈dear我没有stingy ok?
我就是要慢慢给你嘛，等你慢慢欣赏嘛。。。

好啦好啦，我这就给你一张嘛。。。。

一天一张咯，ok?ok?ok ok ok?

嘻嘻。。。

dear我很眼睡了，快要五点了，天亮了，

下次再写更多东西给你好吗？

dear我爱你哦，i love u so much..

love u forever n ever....

muack muack...

love u...

today is quite a nice day even though morning got raining make me so cold and a bit of flu hahha got liu pi ti tim... erm but is very day to sleep in the bed...sadly i have to wake up so early cause have to go to work..so not use to it liao sien man have to go work again...cant i just be together with my bao bei dear dear meh? every morning i wake up the first thing i want to see beside me is my dear dear..sweet sweet dear dear sleeping so nicely beside me.dear dear de sleepy face so cute hehe must be dreaming dono what naughty thing in her dream hahaha but very soon i know i can liao cause after that i can be with you every day and every day i will be so happpy happy... hehehe dear wait for me ok dear. i will come home very very very soon. today wake up just thinking how nice is to wake up beside u den i can hold you in my arms and give u one very warm warm hug. then i before i go to work i will give u one small kiss on ur lips and whisper in ur ear " bao bei wo yao qu zuo gong le. wo ai ni o"
dear today very cold this morning, i forgotten to bring back my blanket. the red blanket make u sneeze and sneeze non stop when we stayed together. sorry dear dear make ur nose ming gan hehe. aiks... now i sleep without blanket so cold how nice if dear dear is beside me than i can hug your warm warm body then i wont liu pi ti le.
dear dear dear... i feel very very xin fu and very happy when i am with you. u make me smile everyday and so warm and nice inside...i really dono use what words to describe my feelings i have for you. everyday i go though i will feel so complete and so joyful.just thinking of you already make me fall into heaven. so in love with you dear.everyday i will feel more closer to u even though we are so far away. everyday i feel i want to just rush back home and hug you tight tight. dear u noe ma this two days i really really very very very happy. even though we dint do much things or go many places but somehow i felt like we spent the most time together during this 2 days. really cannot use other things to replace liao. really the most worth it and most well spent time with u d. totally is 24 hours together with u no go out hehehe. it really feels like i can be with you forever never want to be away from you. even 1 cm i walk away from u i will start to miss u like crazy.
dear...i dont want to waste this love relationship with u dear. i know that we have suffer alot alot liao. i dont want u to suffer anymore. i want to do my best to take good care of you. to give you whole happiness. endless hapiness and xin fu dear. i really want to. you know ma...actually for us to be together is very very hard de. its not easy for two person to fall in love so strong and be together. we have to go through alot of things and challenge. like long distance and everything. but i am really really very grateful that i can be with you dear. i really very appreciate us and you. i really very cherish you as my girlfriend. MY ONLY LOVE. we can be said that the heavens treat us good so that i can meet you. i feel like it is destiny already plan d. i promise you i wont let go dear. i wont give up on you. i hope you wont too ok dear. do u noe how hard for me to meet u ma dear walau eh..if that day u dint wear white shirt and stand at the clc lift there for me to see then i wont noe who is manny liao...woan man who lai de wor...isit old aunty? hahah if that time i dint go open the website to see then i wont see your picture with ur fren liao..if i dint see it then i wont know your msn liao.. if i dint know your msn i also wont go and add you and chat with you liao...like that we will never ever have met somemore never ever even have the chance to be together liao. den i will be alone and single like so ke lian like dat.
dear...you are not hard to xiang chu with. actually you are very hard to xiang chu with. hahaha no la dear. i like to be with you. i like to spend my time with you and tan xin si. i like to talk to u and share things with u dear. i like your company.gen ni xiang chu bing bu nan. no lo dear.so far u have treat me very very good dear. dont have anything you do or action which is nan shou lo.
WEI ~ i where got everyday qi u o..where got where got..u say la u say la where? where where? blerk. zhu.
dear everyday i will look at our foto and look at u then will think of the times we be together and feel so happy inside.oh my god i really love u so much le... this is the first time i feel that everytime when we take photo we are very very match and so so so couple love. really very suitable and very gang gang hao. actually is not gang gang hao. is should be said PERFECT MATCH. so very den tui de. we have 夫妻 yang le hehehe dont scold me cause i hao lian lo cause i really reall y feel like dat le..we are match made in heaven. two banana same skin ...dono la...i think is say like dat gua hahahah wo men zhen de zhen de hen pei. we have many many things in common and alot of things i like u also like haha.
dear i wont so often see leng lui liao ok...cause my beside is one super duper leng lui girlfriend...why need to look at others le.. erm dear.. if u see leng zai must tell me hor..haha then we together kap zai kap lui haha comment comment on them hahaha dear im ok de.
but i see leng lui is for fun only la..i dont like them also. my heart is only with you dear. ok? i see is just see only then i will forget liao. but you are different. you are very very important and special to me dear. i cannot forget you. u have already been lock in my heart d.only you will be in my heart dear.
dear i know you are not 100% perfect because i am also not. im not a very perfect boyfriend also. but you are already 100% to me already. because your my girlfriend and you are 100% in my heart.i also hope that i can be perfect boyfriend to you dear.i really really really love you bao bei. i cannot live a moment without u. whenever i see the foto of our kiss together it makes me sooooooooooo out of this world. i feel like im the happiest and luckiest guy on earth. i cannot want anything more.
yes dear. our kiss is every lasting. forever and ever. never want to miss a moment without u. dear i want everyone in the world to know that i am in love with you dear. want to make them envy me.jealous of us. jealous of our love. just like you said dear. sweet as honey hehehe..ur my honey sweetheart bao bei dear dear.

dear i love you bao bei. i really really love you very very very much. i love you i love you i love you. even if i said it a million times i still want to say it again. cause i want to show my love to you dear. muaks muaks dear.

dear i cant wait for the day i can be with u together and hold you in my arms once again. the times we spend together are very short and i really very appreciate it. walking together with you. eat ice cream together. go change sim card together. go watch movie together. sleep together. hug you together. let you rest on my shoulder together. laugh together. drink together eat together.go jonker walk give ppl push together. eat sushi together. watch movie on pinky together. walk to pork shop together. drink soup together.sleep together hug together.do naughty things together hehehe.

dear the most i miss is just spending my time together with u. im counting the days i can be with u liao dear.fast fast come baby. dear lei hou cute o...lei hou chun o...lei hou cute chun wor... hahaha
muaks muaks dear dear. I LOVE YOU








**oh ya hor..dear are...can u dont be sooo stingy ma dear..can u send me the foto ma...post our the fotos one by one la dear can can can can? please dear please.......i really want the fotos le...eyer dear...dont stingy la
or u one day post one can? can can?

dear....dear im really very very happy....because i have u...

dear 你知道吗？跟你在一起的每一天我都很开心，很满足，

这两天跟你在一起，真的很开心很开心，就好像我们永远都不会分开那样，

原来dear睡觉的样子是这样的，

原来dear不睡觉的样子是那样的，

我都知道了，很高兴，很开心。

dear啊，要多么幸运才能够遇见你呢？

要经过多少的心痛我们才有缘在一起？

这都是我们千辛万苦得来的，所以我们都要好好珍惜彼此，不能随便就把这缘分浪费掉。

dear 啊，人家说相爱容易相处难哦，你觉得你和我相处难吗？
我有什么事情或动作会令你难受的吗？

不过dear你除了整天气我之外，我觉得和你一起很开心，

虽然有时你有一些小缺点，可是我还是觉得很开心。。。。

看着我们的照片哦，真的觉得我们很相配咧，性格外形样貌身高年龄生日，刚刚好，perfect!!!

越看越有夫妻相，羡煞旁人，幸福啊dear,

dear你是我老公了哦，不能再去看别的女孩子了，要看也不要让我知道ok?

我看男生也不会让你知道的，放心dear。。。哈哈。。。我的dear你现在的眼睛一定在瞟我。

我的心里面啊，就只能容得下你了，就只能让你住，

dear啊。。。我真的很认真地看待我们的感情的，

绝不是玩玩下，绝不是半途而废的那种，我真的，我真的把我整个人整颗心交给你了，

你一定，势必要好好珍惜，因为我是很脆弱的，

我希望我在你心目中是个一百分的女孩子，可是我知道不可能，

至少有九十分吧dear，八十五分？

无论我在你心中是多少分，我还是会好好的爱你，

直到达到一百分为止。我会努力的。。。

dear...我们的吻是long-lasting的吻哦。。。帅帅的dear, 美美的我。。。真令人羡慕。。。。sweet sweet....

我永远都很爱你哦dear。。。

这种幸福的感觉多美好，就好像天天都吃蜜糖一样，

dear你为什么能够给我这样的感觉啊？

我简直像在做梦一般，能够认识你，喜欢你到爱上你，都好像做梦一样，

好像所有的东西所有的事情都已经注定了的，我们会相遇相识再相爱。。。

现在想起来，还是会觉得很不可思议。

很爱你啊dear....

那天说可能会遇到比彼此更适合的人，其实我心里多么希望这事不会发生。

因为我已经认定你就是最适合我的人了，没有其他人比你更适合我，

可是，以后的事很难说，

下一秒我们都不知道会发生什么事，

所以我现在开始就要好好爱你，爱到不能爱你为止。

我会很珍惜很珍惜很珍惜现在拥有的一切，

希望dear你也是一样。。。

dear 啊，我又在倒数日子了，还有 34 天我们才能天天见面，

整整一个月，我又要开始想你一个月了，

但是我知道只要过了这个月，我们就能永远在一起，不会再分开了，

希望如此吧dear。。。

dear,好好照顾自己，别人都说你瘦了，你要多吃点，多运动点，

不要有弱弱的身体，怎么照顾和保护我呢？

dear dear dear,加油哦，我会在这里一直支持你的，

还有一个月我们就能天天见面了。。。。

爱你哦dear...muack...

bao bei dear dear i have sooo soo many things to tell you hehe...dono where to start first...erm ok start from that other day..im back in batu pahat (bp) now..open our love diary and starting to tell you my feelings and love for you. bao bei dear, even when you are soo soo soo very far away from me but i feel like your very very very near to me. you always make me feel like your just beside me and your heart is in my heart. we celebrate dong zhi that day hahha i really manage to eat the tang yuan. cause i scared you will overtake me. if i dont eat then i cannot grow one year older liao den you will have to call me xiao di di ...i dont want i dont want. i want to be older than you so that i can take care of you and be the person for you to kao and yi lai. i want to be the only person for you and to provide everything for you my dear dear. we have met many many many people many times and i wish that you will be my only one. oooohhhh yuan lai now i know that my voice attract you hehehe my voice so sweet and soft de meh ahah erm dear r...do you know something..actually hor last time everytime i online i will see you online and wanted to find you chatting de but i choose not to cause i scared i will make your 'X' jealous and make you more sad. dear when the first time i hear you cry my heart become very down and very sad and gloomy. you make me very weak and so helpless cause someone hurt you and the person is me. cause i feel i am wrong cause i made the manny bear especially for you and your 'X' misunderstand my intention and blame you for cheating him. when you said so sorry to me cause you feel that you lian lei le wo i feel so misearble. i really dono what to do cause i dont want to break you guys both de. then after that i dare not find you liao. i try not to find you and hide my feelings for you. cause i know that if i express my love for you u will think i am crazy.and i dont want to be third party. so i just quiet quiet walk away.hope that i will forget you but in the end i cant. dear...do you know ma..when i told you that i wont find you anymore because your 'X' dont like me then you said to me that you dont want to lose me as a friend i am very very very happy cause i feel that you care about me. but who knows heheheh in the end we are together; so i really really very cherish you dear dear dear. i will not hurt you or do anything to hurt you ok bao bei. if that guy dont want to cherish you and trust you, i will dear. i will the guy that will always appreciate you and will love you and care for you no matter what. sometimes i feel like it is already preplan de. it is our DESTINY to meet and fall in love with each other. we are faith dear. yuan fen. cause somehow even so far but we still feel for each other. if this is not call fate then i dono what is call liao...
my friends keep on asking me..so far how is it possible you both can be together wor...then i just tell him two words. LOVE and FEELING.
From the first time i said i like you to the first time i said i love you. i have always been very cherish you. from that moment on i have chosen you to be my everything. i have surrender my love my soul my body to you dear.i want you to be my forever lasting. i cannot lose you dear..really really cannot.

dear i will be my best for you ok dear. i will chap chap myself handsome handsome for you only. i will be clean smart and a bit shuai qi hahahah dear dont u feel i got a bit xiao shuai ma? got got got? got la..sure de ma? a bit oso dont have meh? really really?
dear i know you dont want me to look uncle de ..actually that day you saw my uncle look in pork shop is for ur 'X' to see de not for you ok. you wu hui le. i want him to see my uncle look hwhhahaha.

dear christmas eve that night i come back to especially find you .do you feel happy? how is your feeling dear. i want to know. i know you actually wanted me to be by yourside and countdown and hug you and hold you and when the clock strikes 12 tell you that i love you forever bao bei dear. but hor seems like my plan fail le. success only half only. dear my plan was to surprise you de. cause my company work half day ma. then afternoon after lunch i fast fast go and buy tiket come back to melaka find you. very very rush. in the bus i sms you that i will see you soon but you dint guess that i will come back find you right wahhahah...then i got sms you ask you what plans you have later but you dint reply me back. dear in the bus i thinking alot alot and planning alot alot and wishing to give you the best christmas surprise ever. but when i receive your sms that you and erwin and john going out to makan i feel a bit dissapointed liao. cause like my plan will not success anymore. then i feeling a bit sad lo. thats why i told you that i am coming back ma hope that you will wait for me.but i understand dear cause you are not driving so you cannot come back home. dear i really really love you very much and you are always on my mind ok dear. even if my surprise dint not manage to go as plan but i am very very grateful also that can meet you. dear you know ma when i reach melaka that time i really wanted to go find you in portugis settlement de but there very traffic jam and alot alot of ppl so i think that i cant possible make it. so i plan to do another thing heheh i plan to call you during countdown time and talk to you and celebrate together with you hahah but there too many people and too noisy liao then got many ppl spray you right hahhaha....fun le dear dear..

dear you got make a wish right? you wish thati will come in front of you when you open your eyes. actually santa clause got listen to your wish. your wish got come true. i SUCCEED come back to find you. wohoooo dear i so happy that i can spend the first christmas night with you bao bei dear. i really really happy even if it is just a few hours only one night but i still appreciate the time and quality moment with you dear. i will never never ever forget the christmas night i spent just together with you. just the 2 of us. dear do you feel happy as well? hehe
dear i love you really very much dear...

MERRY CHRISTMAS BAO BEI DEAR DEAR... may we be so jolly and merry forever. my wish is to just be with you * muaks muaks* so happy that i am able to give you my christmas kiss finally dear

dear，今天是冬至节呢，是我跟你在一起以来过的第一个华人大日子，
要吃汤圆哦。这样你就会老一岁，就更成熟可靠，更能令我觉得我日后只需依赖你了。
dear我好幸福因为有你的存在，让我觉得我就是为了遇见你而受到以前的伤害，
所以我都很感谢以前让我受伤的每一个人。
他们让我长大，让我学会更珍惜我拥有的东西，那就是我最爱的你。
我不想你从我身边溜走，所以我要把以前所犯的错都一一改过来。
dear 啊，每一次听到你对我说你爱我，我都感觉很幸福，
就算你说一千次一万次我都不会觉得腻，
我最爱听你对我说你爱我。
不论那一天我遇到什么困难，心情多么不好，
可是只要听到你的声音，我都会觉得很温暖，心情就会开心起来了。
其实一开始，我就是被你的声音吸引的。
你在我认识的男生里面，算是第一个让我被你声音吸引的人了，
因为听起来真的很舒服，就算是和你一直谈一直谈，我也不会觉得闷。
dear你应该不会介意吧，我其实一开始只是喜欢听你的声音，
可是后来，就喜欢和你聊天了。
我不知道你是个怎么样的人，只是觉得和你在一起感觉很舒服。
就算我跟你说很多很多的心事，也不用担心你会告诉其他人，
不知道，我就是那样想。
当我有不开心的时候，说老实的，我有好多次都想找你，
可是我知道你特地不找我，也不知是不是避开我，
msn上你开始没找我聊天，我也知道我们可能以后就没联络了。
谁知道，谁知道，谁知道。。。那只是我们的开始。
其实，你做那个manny bear给我的时候，
我真的很高兴很高兴很高兴，也很喜欢，
只是，那时候的我并不知道其实我很高兴的时候，也开始对你有那么的一点点感觉。
我不知道那是什么感觉，只是很喜欢跟你聊天的感觉。
可能那时我的ex bf 已经发觉到了，所以，他说什么也不相信我们之间什么也没有。
我真的没想过我们会在一起dear，
我以为我们的关系只能到好朋友的阶段，
我也很珍惜你这个朋友。
当时我还很生气，因为我的ex和我分手时，说的其中一个原因是：我和你之间有东西。
我很生气他为什么就是不相信我，就是硬要把你扯进来，
所以我对你很抱歉。呵呵。。。原来，我对你真的有东西，不好意思，我竟然还分不清楚。
那是在回来马六甲的时候，你不停的sms我，我才发觉的。
不过，还好我失恋的时候还会记得你，还会想去找你，
要不然dear,我就不会叫你dear 了。
我很珍惜我们之间的感情你知道吗？真的很珍惜很珍惜，
我不想失去像你一个这么好的男生，
我捉住了，就不想再放手。
有人问我为何和你分隔这么远都还能在一起，
为何会选择你？明明附近就还有很多选择啊。
dear我知道你也想知道答案的对不对？
我就是偏不告诉你。呵呵呵。。。
让你想啊想，一直想一直想，想到你忍不住了，还是只能想。呵呵呵。。我的dear，爱死你了。

其实，我就对他们说，缘分将我们两个拉得很近，让我能看得见你的心，感觉得到你的爱，
就算分隔多远，我都能很清楚感觉得到你，
其实在你跟我表白之前，我已经感觉你喜欢我了，
可是，我就是不想接受远距离的恋爱，
因为我希望我的男朋友是在我身边，我能够随时随地触摸到的距离，
可是我就不知道为何，就傻傻的对你有feel, 喜欢你，很喜欢你，然后到好喜欢你，然后好想爱你。
我身边的确有很多选择，可是dear你知道吗？
我喜欢你让我觉得开心的感觉，
我喜欢跟你一起很舒服的感觉，
我喜欢你让我觉得很可靠的感觉，
我喜欢你让我觉得我可以一辈子依赖你的感觉，
我就是喜欢你，就是喜欢你给我的感觉，就是爱你，就是想要你留在我身边一辈子，
所以不要再问我为何会选择你了，
可以说有一大堆的理由，也可以说完全没理由，因为我就是选择你啊。
帅不帅对我来说没用的，因为我只在乎你。
可是你也千万不要完全不打理自己出现在我面前啦，
我喜欢干净清洁，smart，带点帅气的dear dear 你啊。
不喜欢uncle look的你，哈哈哈。。。开玩笑我的dear。
我喜欢你，因为你不会时常往坏的方面想，
跟你一起我不需要好像哄小孩子那样一直哄你，
向你保证这样保证那样，向你承诺这样承诺那样，
我们只要互相相信就可以了。
我很相信你dear，你也要很相信我哦，
我绝对不会背着你做出让你伤心的事，我不会刻意瞒着你什么东西，
因为不讲跟骗是两回事。。。呵呵呵，你昨天教我的dear。。。我学得很好呢。哇哈哈。。。
我跟erwin都保持着适当的距离，他心里有他坚持的对象，我的心里有你，
所以我们只是好朋友，并没有什么发生。
你应该对erwin感到放心dear，因为那天他找我出去是因为他家里发生了事情，
令他有可能不能和他喜欢的女生去旅行，
所以他有点伤心，问我那样算不算放飞机，
以后他追那个女的会不会有问题。
过后我对他说他这么小事情就叫我出去谈，你会不开心的，因为只是他跟我，
结果他感到非常不好意思，差不多十二点半就送我回去了。
然后他说我可以对你说我们谈的东西，那样你才会安心，他没关系，反正他不认识你。
他也说以后不会再单独叫我出去，除非真的有急事。
所以dear,你应该放心了吧？
我们真的什么也没有，他没有哭，因为他来不及哭，就被我骂了。。。哈哈。。
我很凶的dear，dont play play ar...

还有两天就圣诞前夕了，我多么希望你能在我身边，
我们一起倒数，当时针与分针踏正十二的时候，
轻轻地对你说：“圣诞节快乐，我的dear。i love you forever。”
然后轻轻吻上你的嘴唇。
this is our first christmas kiss...
it's so romantic...
i would like to be with you forever and ever,
never want to let go of you.
dear, 就算你不能够在我身边陪我倒数，
我还是会记住这一个圣诞节的，这是我们两个在一起以来，
第一个过的圣诞节，
就算你不在我身边，我还是会感觉得到你，
这就是我们的心，心连心，就算多遥远，我都能感觉你。

还有不久的日子，我们就能够天天在一起了，
我很期待呢dear，
也许现在的苦苦想念，就是为了考验我们，以后我们就会更珍惜与对方在一起的时间了。
dear,圣诞节我没钱买礼物送给你，但是，我可以将我所有的心送给你，
答应你，以后一定会送你更好更好的礼物。
你也别花钱送我礼物了，有你的pink bear就足够了。
说好了不花钱就不花钱，好不好？
只有你，是我圣诞节最想得到的礼物。
close my eyes,
make a wish...
wish u will come in front of me when i open my eyes,
hope santa claus can listen my wish...
just a wish...

love u my dear....
love u very much my dear...
merry christmas...

It’s a bright and sunny day. As I look out of my room window the sky is the bluest I ever seen. Never seen such a blue sky so long liao…how lovely. There is a few pigeons flying here and there. Some of the pigeons cuddle with each other on the neighbour’s rooftop. Even birds also have know of this thing called love. I feel love in the air whenever I think of us together. Nothing can change my love for you. Nothing at all. I want this love to last forever and ever. I don’t want it to end. Dear I can feel you dear. I can feel that you have been thinking of me everytime. I can feel that you concern about me and care about me. The other day when we had a little miscommunication I feeling very sad. We were both very sad. I know you treat our love diary very important. I know you treat everything about me and us very important. I always make you my first priority do you know that. I also feel all those thing is important ok. I know that if I dint use my own words and original words from my heart it wont have any feeling for you. I understand dear I really do. I think I got a bit guo fen when I said “if you don’t like it den I just delete it lo”. I hate myself for saying this cause it really hurt u. dear im really really really regret this cause I made someone I love so much so sad. I so scared of this. I actually know why you angry me or very disappointed in me. I can feel it. Everytime you say something or do something I have use my heart to feel you. I know what your thinking. But im trying my best to tam you. I keep on saying sorry and apologize but u don’t want care about me. I want to explain to u what I thinking but u already put the status there don’t call me nobody home. Whenver I see this thing I very heart pain and hurt. Cause I feel like you want to leave me. I feel like you like don’t like me anymore. When you don’t want to pick up my phone im so scared cause I really scared of losing you. In my mind i cannot live without you. A life without you mean nothing. When you don’t listen to my call I felt so alone. So helpless. So pain cause I have deeply fallen in love with you. It make me no mood to do other things. I don’t know how to make you know that im really in love with you but you have to trust me and believe me that I really do dear dear. Ever since the first time I said to you the 3 words “ I LOVE YOU” I meant it from the bottom of my heart. I said it with my mind and heart , body and soul. There is not a second I said any lie when I said I love you. I really really mean it. Please believe me dear.

Dear, I can feel your love to me dear. I will cherish you and appreciate you. I wont hurt you. I know that day , night time you cant sleep cause of what I did. I really really sorry for my stupid doing. Made you cannot sleep nicely. Can forgive me dear? Actually why I don’t wish for us to quarrel or fight is because I only want the moments to be sweet and loving. I also know you don’t like to quarrel right? It anything can prevent us to quarrel I will do it. Cause I don’t want to risk losing you. You mean everything to me. Dear I know that sometimes you will very fast change emotions. Very fast angry. But I don’t mind. Cause I can ti liang. For a couple to be together and to last to the end we need to have commitment, trust, consideration and love. I don’t blame you for angry to me cause I know you also have feelings. I understand de. i also hope that you will forever love me. Just love me. I will be by yourside through everything ok. I wont so easily give up on you. I really hope you also think the same way. Don’t just don’t bother me or don’t pick up my call. Dear I will show my love to you. I will be the only person you need. To give you support, gu li, zi chi. Wo yao zuo yi ge nen gei ni yi lai de nan peng you. I wont let go of you dear. I promise myself that I wont let go of you. Ever. What ever it takes.

I am unable to control your thoughts and feelings. .but I am able to change them. When you ask me whether you should continue your girl’s thinking. My answer is do your thinking whenever you need to cause it will make you feel more human. If you feel like you have something in your thought or mind you want to tell me im open to it ok. You can tell me anything de.

Last night a lot of things happen. I have a lot of thinking and feelings. But I don’t know whether I should tell you anot. Cause I feeling very sad. I dono is sad or jealous or wat. But my heart feeling very suan and ku. Why r? why am I feeling this I asking myself. When I draw the graph for you I really don’t have mood. I feel just want to off the computer and just go to sleep and not wanting to think of anything. I dono why I feel like this. I am really really happy that you told me that you go out with Erwin. I am really very happy that you care to tell me the truth that you go out with him alone. I know that you dint lie to me and say any bluff me. But whenever I thinking of you with another boy I feel sad. Maybe is because I love you too much. Everything you do I oso can feel. I use all my heart to feel you. Its like your just beside me only. Last night I thought that you wanted us to do together. I know that Erwin said he got problem and that he wants someone to talk to. But howcome he have to take my dear dear le. Why did he have to choose the one I love and care most? Why why why?? I know friends are important. I don’t mind you going with your friends. Its ok if you go out with boys de ..i don’t mind gua. Erm.. haaha I really stupid doing my thinking la… but I just miss you so much dear.. I really do.. I really miss you miss you miss you miss you. I don’t want any other boy to have you or touch you or hug you. I very selfish. I just want you to be with me.

Dear… another one more week. Every day I just thinking of the time faster past so that I can reach the moment I can see you. Everyday I hoping that the day will come nearer so that I can meet you. Just leave 6 more days. Very fast de I tell myself. I just want to be with you and spend time with you. If can don’t sleep. Just hold you and hug you and kiss you. Hug you till you cant breathe. I wont and never will push you away. I will let you hug me never letting go ok.

Dear dear bao bei dear dear… I every day every second is thinking of you. Not one time is not thinking of you. You already made me so in love you . I love this feeling. Dear… I love you with all my breathe and soul.

今天还是晴天，跟上次一样，天空依然是蓝得像海洋一样，白白的云朵，就像是海上的浪花。
我竟然会对着天空发呆，多久没试过这样了？
多久没像今天这样，什么都不用做，看着天空，想着有你的画面，想着我们在一起的时光。
昨晚的我并没有睡好。是因为想你吧。
我又多久没有试过想一个人想到失眠了。
那时的你，大概在发着美梦吧。梦到哪里了呢？
我知道昨晚我们都很伤心，可能你梦不到我吧，可是我一整晚都在想你，想你，想你。。。
我不知如何对你说我其实并没有很生气你，我只是难过。
我难过的是，为什么我看来很重要的事情，在你眼中不过是如此而已？
我难过的是，为什么我连跟你说话的勇气都没有。
我难过的是，为什么你不知道我在难过的是什么。
我不想跟你吵架。因为我知道你不喜欢吵架，我也不喜欢，
但是只要我一接你的电话，我们就有可能吵架了。
我不知道如何能像你以前的女朋友那样，
在一起能不曾吵架。我已经很尽量避免所有能避免的了。
在有些时候，我很难控制自己不生气，
所以在我不开心的时候，我都不会跟你说话，
我怕，我真的很怕我会说错什么，我们就不能再一起走下去了。
我真的很希望，你能一辈子都爱我，
因为我已经选择要一辈子爱你了。
可是，有些时候，你能不能真的，就真的用你那么的一点心去感受我？
我真的很需要你的一颗心的。
虽然我很多时候都说我不想依赖你，你要帮我的事不到最后一刻无法解决我也不会找你，
可是，我还是跟其他很多女孩子一样的，
我也希望有个人能让我依靠，能有个人用心去感受我所感受的。
有时候我会想，会不会我们在一起得太快了，
以致我们还没能习惯对方的存在，就必须要互相体谅对方。
这样会有点难吧？
可是我真的，我真的很想很想永远牵着你的手不放。
就算我还不是很了解你，就算我还不能很清楚你的生活方式，
我都很想不放开你的手，永远都不！
你会不会，有没有这样的想法呢？

dear 啊，要维持一段感情，到底需要什么？
到底要怎么样才能天长地久？
到底要怎么样我们才不会有说再见的那一天？
只需要一颗拥有对方的心吗？
真的这么简单，你就不会从我身边溜走吗？
我很高兴我们彼此性格很相像，这样会有很多快乐，
可是也有可能因为这样，会有很多发生碰撞的时候。
昨天我想了又想，我应该把我心里面所有的想法告诉你吗？
还要继续girl's thinking 吗？
可是我很多时候，都希望你能只是看到开心的我，
这样你就不会为我担心为我烦。
我们距离很远，所以我希望你能感受的都是我的快乐。
说穿了，其实是我不懂得如何把心里面不开心的事告诉你。
所以我希望你能用心去感受我，
因为我也很用心的去感受你，我真的很用心去感受你心里面所想的每一件事。
dear 我这样会很过分吗？

dear 啊，还有一个星期，七天，我就能见到你了。
到时候，我很想能抱着你不放，一直抱着你，就这样一直抱着你，
我要好好感受你的呼吸，你的心跳，
你可以不要推开我吗？
就让我抱着你不放可以吗？
我不懂如何向你证明我真的很爱你，
可是至少能让我证明我真的很想你。。。
你所有的一切一切，我都很想念。真的很想念很想念你。。。

dear，想你，是我现在在做的事情。
爱你，是我一辈子都会做的事情，
相信我好吗？
我也会相信你的。
我爱你。