bao bei dear dear i have sooo soo many things to tell you hehe...dono where to start first...erm ok start from that other day..im back in batu pahat (bp) now..open our love diary and starting to tell you my feelings and love for you. bao bei dear, even when you are soo soo soo very far away from me but i feel like your very very very near to me. you always make me feel like your just beside me and your heart is in my heart. we celebrate dong zhi that day hahha i really manage to eat the tang yuan. cause i scared you will overtake me. if i dont eat then i cannot grow one year older liao den you will have to call me xiao di di ...i dont want i dont want. i want to be older than you so that i can take care of you and be the person for you to kao and yi lai. i want to be the only person for you and to provide everything for you my dear dear. we have met many many many people many times and i wish that you will be my only one. oooohhhh yuan lai now i know that my voice attract you hehehe my voice so sweet and soft de meh ahah erm dear r...do you know something..actually hor last time everytime i online i will see you online and wanted to find you chatting de but i choose not to cause i scared i will make your 'X' jealous and make you more sad. dear when the first time i hear you cry my heart become very down and very sad and gloomy. you make me very weak and so helpless cause someone hurt you and the person is me. cause i feel i am wrong cause i made the manny bear especially for you and your 'X' misunderstand my intention and blame you for cheating him. when you said so sorry to me cause you feel that you lian lei le wo i feel so misearble. i really dono what to do cause i dont want to break you guys both de. then after that i dare not find you liao. i try not to find you and hide my feelings for you. cause i know that if i express my love for you u will think i am crazy.and i dont want to be third party. so i just quiet quiet walk away.hope that i will forget you but in the end i cant. dear...do you know ma..when i told you that i wont find you anymore because your 'X' dont like me then you said to me that you dont want to lose me as a friend i am very very very happy cause i feel that you care about me. but who knows heheheh in the end we are together; so i really really very cherish you dear dear dear. i will not hurt you or do anything to hurt you ok bao bei. if that guy dont want to cherish you and trust you, i will dear. i will the guy that will always appreciate you and will love you and care for you no matter what. sometimes i feel like it is already preplan de. it is our DESTINY to meet and fall in love with each other. we are faith dear. yuan fen. cause somehow even so far but we still feel for each other. if this is not call fate then i dono what is call liao...
my friends keep on asking me..so far how is it possible you both can be together wor...then i just tell him two words. LOVE and FEELING.
From the first time i said i like you to the first time i said i love you. i have always been very cherish you. from that moment on i have chosen you to be my everything. i have surrender my love my soul my body to you dear.i want you to be my forever lasting. i cannot lose you dear..really really cannot.

dear i will be my best for you ok dear. i will chap chap myself handsome handsome for you only. i will be clean smart and a bit shuai qi hahahah dear dont u feel i got a bit xiao shuai ma? got got got? got la..sure de ma? a bit oso dont have meh? really really?
dear i know you dont want me to look uncle de ..actually that day you saw my uncle look in pork shop is for ur 'X' to see de not for you ok. you wu hui le. i want him to see my uncle look hwhhahaha.

dear christmas eve that night i come back to especially find you .do you feel happy? how is your feeling dear. i want to know. i know you actually wanted me to be by yourside and countdown and hug you and hold you and when the clock strikes 12 tell you that i love you forever bao bei dear. but hor seems like my plan fail le. success only half only. dear my plan was to surprise you de. cause my company work half day ma. then afternoon after lunch i fast fast go and buy tiket come back to melaka find you. very very rush. in the bus i sms you that i will see you soon but you dint guess that i will come back find you right wahhahah...then i got sms you ask you what plans you have later but you dint reply me back. dear in the bus i thinking alot alot and planning alot alot and wishing to give you the best christmas surprise ever. but when i receive your sms that you and erwin and john going out to makan i feel a bit dissapointed liao. cause like my plan will not success anymore. then i feeling a bit sad lo. thats why i told you that i am coming back ma hope that you will wait for me.but i understand dear cause you are not driving so you cannot come back home. dear i really really love you very much and you are always on my mind ok dear. even if my surprise dint not manage to go as plan but i am very very grateful also that can meet you. dear you know ma when i reach melaka that time i really wanted to go find you in portugis settlement de but there very traffic jam and alot alot of ppl so i think that i cant possible make it. so i plan to do another thing heheh i plan to call you during countdown time and talk to you and celebrate together with you hahah but there too many people and too noisy liao then got many ppl spray you right hahhaha....fun le dear dear..

dear you got make a wish right? you wish thati will come in front of you when you open your eyes. actually santa clause got listen to your wish. your wish got come true. i SUCCEED come back to find you. wohoooo dear i so happy that i can spend the first christmas night with you bao bei dear. i really really happy even if it is just a few hours only one night but i still appreciate the time and quality moment with you dear. i will never never ever forget the christmas night i spent just together with you. just the 2 of us. dear do you feel happy as well? hehe
dear i love you really very much dear...

MERRY CHRISTMAS BAO BEI DEAR DEAR... may we be so jolly and merry forever. my wish is to just be with you * muaks muaks* so happy that i am able to give you my christmas kiss finally dear