dear dear i am reading the post you write for me. so long dint on our Love Diary (LD) liao...really very very sweet ler. it reminds me of the days and times when i am in penang working and you studying in melaka.so far distance and we can still communicate with each other. it brings back the memory.but now it is starting all over again. i graduated liao.so have to come back to my lovely hometown batu pahat cause the contract over liao. i know i promised you that i will work in seremban or melaka but i dint find any job in melaka. i still doing nothing right now. dono what to do. no objective in life right now. so feeling very helpless.who can decide for me and show me the path that i should follow? it is all in a decision. the decision i make now will bring me to what i will become in 10 years later. i really very scared. very scared that i will choose someting i dont like or something i will regret later. i dono what to choose.everyday i wake up i am slap with this question. What should i do? haih~ how good it is if can turn back time and restart everything again. Study is still the best. Dont have to think of anything else besides wake up and study and eat. Assignments and exams and holiday trips. haih~ but that kind of life is over for me liao. now have to really think of the next step. My brain really full of question mark. The most important is still money. No money cannot continue study also. Work or Study, work or study....Dear dont worry ok i will decide soon de.i dont like to do nothing everyday.so boring
dear dear you so cham de ler...until now only u know that i got post something in the blog. Oh my goodness. how long liao wor...from February to June liao wor...5 months cukup cukup you know. The LD also karat (Rusty)liao .got spider web d. hehehehe really so long dint login d.Its ok la dear. i wont blame you de ok. i know after i come back from penang it is the most happy thing that ever happen right?The day that i able to come back to your arms and see you and hug u and kiss and be with you forever and ever.Dear dont be sad and guilty ok. i know you very very love me de. Me too dear. i love you with all my heart also. I know y ou dint mean that in the msn. I also know that you said de all in the msn is opposite meaning but i just want to let you know that i feel very care about you and serious on what you saying everytime.I purposely misunderstand it de so that you will tam me de. sorry wor dear. :-) dont angry me ya. Yaloh dear. i am your stupid dum dum dear. always will be ok.hahaha i look smart but i also very smart ma not meh? a bit blur and clumsy sometimes lo.Dear i so happy that i can make u feel so warm and safe lo. i love you very much my sleepy dear dear.when you hug your piggu i sure wont forget it de. and the way that you sleep on the bed is so very very very cute.
Actually when i go to indonesia for my graduation trip i really so heart down and not happy and sad. because i will be leaving Malaysia and i will be so far far away from my dear dear. maybe because everyday i can talk and hear dear dear voice but now i can seldom hear from her d. i so sad.before get on the plane i sms my dear dear to let her know that i am leaving liao. that i am thinking of my dear dear. to let her know where i am and how much i am missing her and thinking of her. i know you may be wondering what i am doing and how i am look.i just want to make u feel that i am just beside you even though i am not. and i am so far away from you dear.now i know how hard it feels to separate from you. how suffering it is.every moment just thinking of you but cannot do anything. cannot hear you cannot see you cannot feel you and kiss you. As i am writing this line i am crying.got tears in my eyes. i seldom cry when i writing things de. this is the first time. i really very very very miss you dear. when can i see you and hug u ler? i am just wondering. Dear, do you cry in the night when you thinking of me? is it very very suffering inside your heart?dear, i really really regret leaving you alone in melaka. can you forgive me ? please please please. i know you cant hear me right now cause you are still sleeping in bed.I wont disturb my dear dear sleeping de.LEt my dear dear sleep shu shu fu fu.when she wake up den i can hear my dear dear voice d.
Dear very very thank you that you would feel happy for me bao bei. i very grateful that you would wish me happy nice trip. Love you so much. Give you big big kiss first. Muaks muaks.I know it is so hard for us to be away from each other so far. Everytime you call me the background sound so noisy cause maybe got crowd or got lots of ppl around gua.i want to tell them to just shut up and let me speak to my dear dear but too many ppl liao.When i hear your voice i also feel very very happy. i know how much you missing me everyday when im not around. i feel so guilty that i cant accompany u there.i also want to find you fast fast and just hug u tight tight before i leave. dear you guai guai waiting me to come back i will reward you ok. i would never forget you waiting for me de.when i go for trip i will always keep you in my heart and always thinking of you. whether you are ok or not in melaka. cause you are alone there and no friends i dono whether you can be strong or not. cause i know that my dear dear very weak de and dono how to do things and need my help de but now i cant be there for her i really dono wat to do. dear r i promise you i will help you whenever i can ok dear. dont worry ok.somemore i not there to bring dear dear go eat dinner liao dono dear dear everyday eat maggie mee or not.i so worry about you dear. i just want to take care of you and not make you suffer but now we are both suffering like hell. is it cause we love each other and miss each other so much till go crazy d????
Dear dear i got some happy news for you. i buy alot alot of thing for you. so many souvenir i hope you will like it lo. even though i happy happy o trip but still i got think of you dear. trust me ok ok. i dono how to choose present de so i just feel what is nice for my dear dear then i just buy lo. dear if you dont like it then let me know ok??? dear the first day without my call message and msn isit very hard to get through? dont cry bao bei dont cry. got 2 piggu accompany you still can ma? imagine the piggu is me ok dear dear.cause is me give dear dear de. so it is very very super special. dear dont worry . i got eat full full everyday even though the food not very delicious. all malay food. chicken and fish. only got 1 type of vege only so lousy. then the chicken and fish so very very dry. no sauce at all de. but the chilly very very nice and super hot. orange colour de. so spicy.yes dear i everyday also wear nice nice cause i know you want me to look good right? i everyday before i go out also got wax hair de.thank you cause you give me the wax o. i will remember you when i travelling. dear i know you feel very depress cause u cant know what i am doing and it is impossible also. i know you very very miss me so very much and you also feel very unsafe. dear i will be strong for you ok. if you face problem just call me dear. i will help you solve it ok? i will do my best to give you help and support you need dear. it is like i am just beside you nia. i know you rely on me very much de even though u say u want to be independent and you know how to solve everything your own but i know you very timid and shy de.if you dont have me you dono how to solve the problem de. dear i will help you ok. you are not alone.
dear i dont mind you to rely on me ok.i know this week is very tough challenge for you but now i come back liao so you can still rely on me ok hehehewhen you hear me leave you got cry ma dear? i also want to see u and feel you everyday and talk to u everyday. hahaha i know when i keep on asking me questions you will feel very fan. actually i am not very know how to talk de guy de. i dono how to find topic to conversation.im so sorry dear. i normally will just keep quiet de.when ppl talk only i campur.thats why i keep on asking you questions lo. if i am not around can i ask u many many thing? u wont feel fan? hahaha dear ar i also prefer the days i live with you and do everything with you da bao for you. now you are alone liao u have to do all this thing by yourselve ok? dont think too much of it . i know it is very hard.if you really cannot control just call me ok?
i also miss the time when i can stay with you and do everything with you.study together eat together sing togeter watch movie together hold hand together eat mcD together go shopping together. i also wish that i can turn back time and live those days when we can laugh loud loud together and can hear u ngam ngam me like ah po like dat. make you feel angry is the worst cause very hard to tam you back de dear dear. but i also feel the happiness when i success tam you back lo dear. everyting is about you bao bei. i really dono how to live each day without u. haihz~but i know i have to be strong cause you still love me very very much right?
Dear dear start new sem liao...so weird after exam then holiday 2 weeks dint go back melaka.dint drive back pass by those road and reach bukit beruang turn into petronas and pass by the big tree and turn left then reach temple then turn right and go straight. so feeling uncomfortable that i dint go back melaka.maybe is too xi guan the life in melaka liao. now too relax in bp also so sien. how is your life in new sem dear? still can cope ma? lecturer good ma? got give alot of assignment right? dont worry la dear.. all this is just temporary de..last time i also got this challenge but now still the same de.you will get through it de ok dear. trust me. i have confidence that my dear dear can do it de. dear i am so happy also that i can be with you till today dear.i will come to melaka find you soon cause i cant bear the suffering of staying so far away from you. really very hard to control. wah dear you turn ur phone to not silent just to wait for me to message you r? so disspointed . i should have message you lo dear. dear r u went to mmu corner to eat still ok ma dear? i know dear dear dont like to go MMU corner eat de but u just walk a bit more then can go 663 eat liao ma right? just go straight only. dear u dont feel too sad la ok? if u sad me lagi sad lo.at least u got hui mee can accompany you makan r. just bear a while lo. find other place to eat beside mmu corner lo near near de.yes dear. after two years we can be together forever liao. even though i cannot confirm anything right now but i will do my best to be with you ok bao bei.
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